Express and explore

I am nervous...why?

why do I feel uneasy about going home? 

why do I feel unsettled as to what the future holds?

why am I fighting to stay in a place of love and not fear in my friendships?

I want to cry...

why do I suddenly feel depressed and like crying?

my hope is in You, Lord.

I wait for You...long for You.

I don't want to leave Hawaii...leave this safe place where I didn't have to deal with other things...

Something tells me I am being unrealistic...

but I must express

and what is it that I am tired of?

I am tired of fighting...

I don't want to loose this budding creativity inside. I want to explore...I must explore

or else put me inside a box and keep me there...but I don't want to be hidden...

I wasn't meant to be hidden

so I must express and explore.

God, it is You and me. The rawness of You and me.

Limitless One, my very Best Friend.

Take these thoughts, take control, mold me.